Model Thin or Double Chin?

The human body = Stress!

That's how I define it. Constantly, people are thinking about their weight, their physic, the shape that their body is in daily. I'm not going to lie, I'm one of them. I'm 5'1". I'm very short, and weight is put constantly for me. I'm not saying I'm overweight or I'm completely unhappy with my body. But, I am jealous of other people; and I'm not the type to get jealous. I have friends that are stick thin, that eat horrible food. I also have friends that are stick thin because of eating disorders. I even have friends that are models and are only 17 years old, and all you see is bone. But for some reason, I want that, and so do many others. Not to be anorexic or be showing bone, but to have that body that everyone looks at and becomes envious.
Nobody wants to have double chins and a belly you can look down and see. But what I don't understand is why am I so obsessed to look good? Is it because we want a boy? Is it because we want to be constantly looked at? Or is it just because we know it'll make us feel good inside?

Why do I suck in my stomach every time a picture of me is taken? Why am I so body conscious???

I need to have belief in myself and so does everyone else that beauty comes from within. Many people told me I'm beautiful and I have a hard time taking that in. I hate saying it but I think I'm at that age where being thin is what I'm supposed to be. I eat something bad and I feel awful about it. I don't want to be like that. I want to be so confident in myself that I can eat whatever and can look in the mirror every single day and tell myself "You are Beautiful."
....and I have yet to do that.

Bathing suits are everyone's enemy. Putting one on is like death to so many people. Everyone stares at you and your figure thinking if that bathing suit is too small for your body shape or if they want the body you are showing off. I'm sure right now, 95% of women are working their bodies to the highest limit in order to be prepared for beach season. I'm not going to lie, I'm getting ready to diet. But I'm a teenager....the word diet should not be a part of my vocabulary yet. But it is. Looking good is being pressured on us all the time making us feel uncomfortable and drastically changing the way we eat and exercise.

I wish like the rest of the world that I was thin and could pull off any outfit.

At the same time. I don't. I want to be unlike the rest of the girls and pull off something that most women are afraid to: A healthy looking woman, bigger than a size 0.

Time to take that stand. Time to be different.